“A continual cry of my heart is that I might always be deepening my intimacy with the Lord. I do not want to become complacent, or even satisfied, in my current relationship with Him. I desire to keep growing in my love and knowledge of God – in essence, I thirst for His ongoing power and presence in my life.”[1] Cynthia Heald
30 years ago, I was floundering on the surface of Christianity trying to find my way into a deeper experience of God. After years of failure, I reached the end of myself and gave up. My spirit stilled, waiting for what might or might not come next.
In my quiet desperation, I began reading Ephesians and writing out my heart. God drew close, materializing out of the fog of my despair, and began His deepening work in my heart. Yet, the deeper He has drawn me, the more I despair of my shallowness and the greater my longing to know God more. For there is no limit, no rocky bottom, no end nor finality to the wondrously unimaginable depths of God. And I feel that I have only splashed in the spreading waves of the surf.
At the gate of 2015, He has again stirred my heart to return to Ephesians and plunge deeper. He has also brought back to me the writings of several of the godly seekers of the deep: Cynthia Heald, AW Tozer, Calvin Miller, and Andrew Murray. Their panting after God has inspired me over the years, and drawn me after them and after the One they pursue.
So, begins the next leg of my journey and rereading Ephesians and writing and, this time, blogging it. [For my determined purpose is] that I may know Him [that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly.] Philippians 3:10a, Amplified Bible
“…now begins the glorious pursuit, the heart’s happy exploration of the infinite riches of the Godhead. That is where we begin, I say, but where we stop no man has yet discovered, for there is in the awful and mysterious depths of the Triune God neither limit nor end.”[2] A.W. Tozer
Anyone else thirst for God’s ongoing power and presence in your life? Anyone else hungry to go deeper into the mysterious depths of the Triune God? He calls us to it. He yearns and waits for it.
[1] Heald, C. (2009). Dwelling in His Presence. Colorado Springs: NAVPRESS, p. 7.
[2] Tozer, A. W. (1993). The Pursuit of God. Camp Hill: Christian Publications, p. 14.